Know when to Say When
With the college application process behind me for my son, Jackson, I am looking back over the last year and seeing that I did still check a few off the writer’s list:
- Writer’s retreat (Ashland, VA).
Finished fourth book (1ST DRAFT- HARD KNOCKS -oh joy, edits await.)
- Journal writing * meditation writing/with yoga
New book proposal (new treatments written out)
- -New projects in the work; online related
I feel so refreshed though from taking a major break from goal hitting. I love racking in the goals, making the goals, planning the goals and redefining goals…to where now I see, that
the best thing I did for my soul was just to breathe in and out, and observe life for a bit. Think, retreat, and be a full time mom again with my son (I do other things and such like help my husband, and manage marketing part time for a company in San Diego).
Then, when I least expected it, I won a fabulous yoga retreat to Lake Louise that helped my unravel my un-anchored feelings of motherhood.
I had no idea that Motherhood had become such a deeply cast anchor within my soul. To feel as if that was unraveling, was such a quick onslaught of heavy emotions weighing my heart down. I needed to retreat more within to figure my hear out. Now here in 2018, I am on countdown to graduation. Exuberant new feelings are bubbling up, and spilling forth. New goals are back on the map. Edits are under way. Secret book ‘unexpected book challenge’ almost done.-Updating blog and meeting my 5 sun salutation daily. This year have never felt more exciting. After almost 18 years of placing motherhood before me, I just realized that I am finding my way back to me. At the age of 46, life is marching on and I am thrilled to find my writer’s voice again and that unstoppable feeling within my heart.
Hang out with lovely people. If those around you are constantly dimming your light, you might begin to feel a shade bit darker, too.
That last paragraph fits in because last year I took a retreat of sorts from relationships. And, it was such a blessing to come up smiling from within my own inner well.
When the world begins to pull us down, or more specifically direct circumstances that undermine our soul and self worth, make sure you know ‘when to say when,’ just like in the coffee shop.
Too much cream and it ruins the perfect cup.